Live, Laugh, and Shut the Hell Up: Midlife Shift Edition

I think we all need a witness.

Someone who notices when the plan changes. When the job you thought you’d retire from disappears. When the business works until it doesn’t. When your hormones sneak out in the middle of the night and take your sleep, patience, metabolism, and tolerance for nonsense with them.

Some of my favorite things.

Someone who understands that starting over rarely looks neatly folded and put away. Someone who loves you through the days you just want to look at the mess of this midlife shift and tell all those glossy Live, Laugh, and Love signs to shut the hell up because this edition of your life didn't come with a brochure. Usually there are bills due. The refrigerator is begging for an intervention: leftover spaghetti and some cottage cheese you’re pretty sure has developed opinions. Your last good bra is in the dirty laundry, and you have 13 tabs open in your brain, three decisions you’ve been avoiding, and a running list of regrets and collateral damage.

Pretty much every day, you seriously consider selling tomatoes and used books from a roadside stand and throwing your smarty-pants phone under the next semi. “Goodbye, email…”

I notice those moments. The little sharp ones especially.

The sentence somebody says in a meeting that tells you everything you need to know about them and the company. Or the sentence a friend lets slip that tells you a betrayal has already happened. The friend who says “I’m fine” and immediately changes the subject. The woman sitting in her car for five extra minutes before leaving the parking lot.

The moment you realize the life you carefully assembled has descended into chaos and resembles three raccoons in a trench coat pretending to be your retirement plan. I notice who shows up- and who chooses not to.

Those are the breaths I write down.

I’ve built businesses, lost businesses, worked corporate jobs, been laid off, and made money on the internet. I've watched the digital world become the place we go to feel less alone, only to somehow leave feeling worse. I have reinvented myself enough times to understand that very few lives follow the brochure. Mine certainly hasn’t.

Through all of it, writing has been the constant. Jobs changed. Businesses disappeared. Plans spontaneously combusted. Entire versions of me packed up without leaving a forwarding address. Eventually, I always find my way back to the keyboard or a notebook, looking for clues: what happened, what I missed, and what was hiding in plain sight.

That’s what writing has always been to me: a record. The receipts. A way of saying, I saw that, too. It happened. You were there. You weren’t imagining it. That was hard. That was ridiculous. You really did survive that.

The ink is my witness.

We need that from each other.

You may come here because something I write makes you laugh, think, reconsider, or say, “I’m glad she said it because freakin’ me, too!” But I need you, too. I need your stories, your questions, your disagreements, the thing your mother always said, and the job you finally walked away from- and yes, sometimes that job is a husband, the ridiculous thing that happened to you in the parking lot, and the parts I missed entirely.

You witness things I don’t.

That's the relationship I want with you. Not an audience on one side and a person with a pen and microphone on the other. Just people comparing notes about our lives: what happened, what we noticed, what still makes absolutely no sense, and what we might do next.

These days, I write about things I can’t stop noticing and research the things I can’t leave alone: work, midlife, technology, money, women, and the strange business of figuring out what comes next when you’re old enough to know better but still curious enough to try something anyway. I’ll write about things you love, things that make you uncomfortable, conversations we probably should be having, and occasionally something that pisses you off enough to unfollow me.

That’s okay.

Most times I know what I’m talking about. Sometimes I’m standing in the mess, taking notes and trying to understand how we make a life out of what happens next.

Whatever it is, there’s usually a story in it.

Write on,

Cat

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